the song that reminds me most of Di ^
As a lot of you know, last Friday my cousin Diamond went on to be with the Lord. She doesn't have to struggle, suffer, hurt, or be anything other than at rest and at peace. He called her home and is protecting her from the evils of this world. After Friday, I found a new level of strength in me I did not know I had.
I have learned a lot this week..
I always say you only get one life to love, I mean it's the title of my blog.. but something like this puts your one life into perspective. My heart aches along with those of my family for the loss of Diamond. We miss her already.. I've already been thinking about this coming Thanksgiving and who I'll be shooting with. I'll probably have my pink gun by then so Diamond will be right there with me shooting. (side note--probably ALL of you know that I am not a pink person.. but I always laughed about Diamond having a pink gun and all her love of pink so I think it's only fit if I get a pink gun in honor of her. I am also probably going to invest in a pink diamond decal for my truck too in memory of her.)
I have seen so many people reach out and come together this week.
I have learned distance doesn't matter for family, & there is no excuse for not being there for somebody.
I have learned you cannot be selfish when it comes to family. During time of joy or time of heartache.
I have learned that the word "cousin" is really just another way to say brothers and sisters.
I have learned that I have a fantastic family.
I have learned that I have some real true friends.
I have learned what it means to truly have a best friend.
I have learned that I am a part of a Church that freaking rocks.
I cannot thank you guys enough for reaching out to me. The hugs, the kind words, the thoughts, the prayers. & the best part is letting me goof off with their kids all week and for not treating me like anything was wrong. Laughing and playing and joking around was what I needed. You guys are so amazing and I am so thankful to be part of such an amazing Church family and group of friends. I cannot thank you guys enough for the comfort and support.
We may never know why God does what He does or why. I know Diamond is protected from the evils of this world now and will be forever safe.
Yesterday was a hard day for us all.. by my side I had my family and my best friend. (Lets just say if I had to hand craft a friend perfect for me, I could not have done a better job. I thank the Lord daily for Ciara Jean. He did a reallll good job. I don't know where I would be without her. I have learned so much and grown in so many ways. Together we are planning and working towards great things and I couldn't do it without her.) Sitting in that pew with a heavy heart and mixed emotions I turned to see if my Grandparents had arrived at the Church yet and I could not believe who I saw.. two spectacular, sharped dressed men...David Godzisz and Tony Birkhead. I was shocked, and of course I cried (happy tears of course). That was by far the nicest thing I have ever had done for me, it was so unexpected but God works like that.. To have Ciara beside me and those men behind me meant so so much to me. I cannot thank those three enough for being there to support me and my family. I can't even put into words how I felt having them there. I can't stop thinking about it and it will be something I never forget. I have never had anything done like that for me before. This week has shown me who truly cares for me. The Lord has put some amazing people into my life and lets just say I LOVE my friends and my Church!
I have no idea how I will ever repay Ciara, Tony, David, and all of you for reaching out to me and just being the strength I couldn't find in myself. Death is never easy and saying it sucks is an understatement, but all of that support, comfort, and strength made it bearable.
With God all things are possible. With God all things are perfect. He has a plan for us all and we just have to let Him do His thing. We have to trust Him because He does know what He is doing. We have to stop questioning God and just let Him use us. Let His will be done, not ours.
Again, I cannot thank you guys enough for everything you have done for me this week. The words, the hugs, the support, the comfort, the laughs, the smiles, all of it has made things a little bit easier and given me the strength to be there for others in my family.
Rest in piece Diamond. Thank you for the memories, and the laughs and the 24 years you blessed us with. So glad you are safe from the hands of this world. You are protected forevermore by the hands of God.
I love you all. Thank you to all of you who reached out to me and my family for being a part of my life and showing me what it truly means to have care for others.
-B
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